To Chris

"You fill me with passion, hate, excitement, fear, joy.. All at once. When I'm around you sometimes its hard for me to breath I am so filled with different emotions. And don't take it the wrong way. It terrifies me because I don't know what that means.. I haven't ever felt that before and scares me a little"This is what I would say to him if I ever had the guts to do it.

I hate that when I found out my aunt died you were the one person I wanted to see or talk to and you ignored me. I hate that when I'm sad all I want to do is talk to you and you would rather be out with your friends. I hate that your the kind of guy who will make a plan and then never talk about it again and I'm stupid enough to think that you would actually follow through with it. I hate that no matter how mad I am at you that I never want to give you up when I never even had you to begin with because your my best friend and I'm just another clingy girl that you rarely hang out with