He loves me for me but not enough to tell anyone

if only

I share this excerpt from an entrance on the Tumblr account "other people's love letters". from an entrance entitled "if..."

"Sometimes I wish that I never knew you. Like a child allowed chocolate just once, then never again, I’ve struggled to find satisfaction in a world of unshared pleasures. Yes, I have shared many things with many people - but my soul has always ached for you. I remember how strangely you were acting in our last week together. So strangely that I even asked to myself, you were thinking of “doing something silly. Strangely though, when you left, I had to stop myself from shouting out and running to you and holding you and telling you the words that choke me still, I love you

That's for you, R.

Someone in my extended family made my mom cry tonight. Thus making all of us cry. :(

sometimes I miss you so much it hurts. I literally ache from missing you so much. 

My brain tells me I can do better but my heart tells me I don't want better..